I am too hard on myself when it comes to my riding. I take it very seriously that I am shaping my young horse’s future. If I don’t teach PJ to be a good equine citizen would anyone else find him valuable if something happened to me? Maybe that’s why I got in a funk after my lesson today. I felt good going to the barn, but as soon as I got in the saddle, I felt stiff and off-centered and ineffective. It was an effort to be correct but every time I turned down the short side my instructor told me to stop collapsing on my right side. Every time. Last week we discovered that my collapsing was just a symptom of me throwing my hips to the inside, and I was concentrating on not doing that the entire ride. But obviously from my instructor’s critique, I wasn’t doing it (even thinking the buzz word “Target” didn’t help).
Writing this down, I can think of many reasons why I wasn’t all there. Work has restarted after the holiday break, so I’m waking up earlier and stressing more. I hadn’t ridden since Saturday, and that was a light day. I had gone to the gym in the morning, so maybe I was tired (but that would be lame because I only did cardio). I think I should make a New Year’s resolution to relax a little. It was only one ride and I was still riding a world better than I was this same time last year.
So my friends in cyberspace, is anyone else’s mood dictated by whether they had a good or bad ride?